Don't build walls, build bridges.

When will I learn…

“We have unfinished business.

See you tomorrow.” 

Damn youuuuuuu.
I really want to have sex with him now. I cannot explain how wrong and confused and fucked up I am lol. 

Well karma really is a bitch.

It’s a little Inconsiderate when the guy you have strong feelings for, that are supposedly reciprocated… Has sex with someone, then asks you for money for the morning after pill, then asks you to go in for it.

It’s not even that he’s just some guy. He’s my best friend. Obviously in friend mode, I did it for him straight away.

I’m just gonna have to separate friend mode and feelings mode until the time is a little more ‘right’.

It’s a good thing he’s busy this week because I don’t even want to see him until my feelings are a little more in check.

On the plus side I’ve been very mature about this and he’s really shocked. A few years ago I’d have kicked off on impulse and hurt a lot of people over this.

I do forgive him, everyone knows I was a complete wanker to him when we broke up 3 years ago. In the back of my mind I knew this was a long time coming.

I just feel really let down. I’m not angry, disappointed. I really thought he was better than that.

Awk ok. Now I’m just completely confused.
I don’t really think I can be friends with him. Not just friends. I can’t switch off feelings. My brains telling me to distance myself because for my own sanity, I can’t put up with this much longer. It’s going to destroy me.

I just can’t do it, it’s not fair, I can’t be a proper friend to him like this. I thought I could but it’s not working.

I’m supposed to hang out with him tomorrow, i really don’t want to now. I suppose I should explain it face to face anyway.

Aw I love knowing you’re having sex with her tonight! Cunt.

Drunk messages from my babe last night.
I think I’m winning, we both definitely have got more affectionate.

I love animals.